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14 days old

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God damn. Just when pumping was on the up and up and I was feeling more confident about it all, I get a clogged duct.

I learned the difference between clogged duct and engorged so that’s great – learning something new everyday. I put a cold compress on it after pumping and allegedly from Dr. ChatGPT I should feel better in 24-48 hours.

It honestly pains so much (on top of already taking pain meds for my cooter) and it made me wonder – why the fuck am I breastfeeding. The amount of effort that goes into pumping is unreal, especially on top of taking care of a newborn child. But, I want to, I want to do it for her. But why??? At the end of the day, is there a difference?? Can we tell the difference between those people who are formula fed and breast fed?

Is the amount of physical and mental work for breastfeeding worth it??????

-Jess