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4 weeks old

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Huckleberry, Cradlewise, and Elvie. 3 apps I constantly have open on my phone. Huckleberry to log her poops her pees, her milk intake, what breast she was on last/for how long, what type of bottle she had and how much I’m pumping. Cradlewise, is her monitor and sleep tracking. Then Elvie is my app for my travel pump. My phone exhausts me, but it also gives me peace of mind?

Being able to quantify her feedings, review and be proud of how much I’m pumping, helped me tremendously in the first two weeks. But then it became a chore. Once I got the routine down pat, what to expect, what’s abnormal etc the apps became another child to monitor. It also got me OBSESSED with milk supply and how much was or wasn’t pumping, overall it became unhealthy for me and overwhelming.

I think huckleberry was amazing when I didn’t know what was happening, it gave me great peace of mind and helped with my anxiety. It even helped me realize that we had to supplement with formula because my boobs weren’t enough. But let me tell you, when the switch flipped, it fuckin flipped. Thankfully I was able to recognize it, and get the fuck off of huckleberry. Now I still have it installed. But, will I ever go back? Not unless something happened for me to start to need the data again.

But ultimately do what’s best for you.

I know if I had the ankle monitor for the baby I would be unwell, checking the app every 2 seconds wondering what is happening. When everything is fine and you have to just breathe that out.

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